do u tink i care??

2007-04-07T00:35:00.001+08:00

Deardear whoever you are,

I've switched to LiveJournal cause its cooler than blogger.

BYEBYE BLOGGER.

So, here goes my new blog..

http://screwyourfaceup.livejournal.com

enjoyy!

2007-03-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating my blog. Im like, real lazyy.

&tired too.

Have you guys noticed people are all rejecting their blogs.

Im afraid i'll be like thiss. Blogging isnt as exciting as it once used to be.

Im switching to livejournal or xanga one day, if im still interested, i think i will tho.

Oh yeah, today i went to the gym, effing nice yawww.

Not that big, but whatever.

Its nice. I think i'll go there right after school one day.

Hit the gym instead of hanging around. Im afraid i might grow fat, and my stamina is a little rusty.

Gotta buck up cos napha, or whatever the spelling is, is coming soon.

Not to mention the NDP. I am chosen!!!

But its real tiring.

Thats what i heard anyway.

Oh yes, the gym.

I LOVEE THE GYMM.

<33

oh...my handphone got confiscated.

Really sucks.

Parents are so unreasonable yes?

I miss my cell.........

2007-03-13T20:11:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU SOFI, TMR IS HER BIRTHDAY. GAHHH. SHE'LL BE FOURTEEN.

2007-03-11T21:11:00.000+08:00

Went out yesterday for some ncdcc stuff, had to go house house to survey the people. Its kinda freaky. Especially when an indian guy answers the door without a shirt on, and dont really know how to speak english. boo~~~ Plus, he dont got no abs, which makes it even worse! 0.0

Avril lavigne is so fucking thin i envy her. Love her new hairdo and her new video, girlfriend.

Like, she is so whatever. =] teeheeheee!!

Im going to sentosa, haha, you cant go, haaha dont you just envy the destinations i head to.

Okay, im tired.

2007-03-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

i went out today. =D

2007-03-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

Let me tell you this,,,

I just might become a very disturbed child for the rest of my life. Really. I could. Who knows?

The reason why? Its because I didnt go to the really awesome Fall Out Boy Concert. Thats why.

Like fuck, why must the cost of them tickets go up so high?

Im so poorrrrr. For real.

But i think they'l be returning to s'pore on their next tour or something. I'll be sure to go if i have the cash.

TOMORROW HAVE SCHOOL. GOT THAT DAMN TEST STUFF. I feel SO afraid.

Afraid for my chinese~~~veryy veryyy afraid. I think i'll fail.

I failed my last chinese test.

Wish me good luck please..! i really need it.

oh, and i havent done my homewrk yet. If if i dont hand up my chinese work by tmr, my chinese teacher will call my mumm, like damnn.

2007-03-02T18:00:00.000+08:00

damn,

I must say this.

I REALLY ROCK AT EDITING PICTURES!

I have so many people asking me to edit their pictures. Im feel soo god damn touched.

AHHAHAHA, i really must say this ! I know im lame, But im just glad. =D

I bought a hoodie yesterday. Its nice and comfy.

I mean REALLLLYYY COMFY.

Fuck, its raining again...

It rained twice today. =(

Oh yeah, later i'll be heading off to school again for the parent-teacher session shitstuff.

See some of you guys there alright. =D

I want to buy a red umbrella. It looks real good in pictures.

Oh and a leather belt with a really cool buckle. AND red headphones.

I love my red wall. <33>

2007-02-25T20:29:00.000+08:00

Yeah, If my music is too loud, you're too old.

& oh,

skaters are effing hot. <33

HAHA. Im thinking bout creating a myspace, but abit troublesome.

I LOVE YOU GUYS.

IM sorry if it seems like i abandon my blog. =[

But i havent, i swear!

2007-02-19T20:01:00.000+08:00

AH shit.

I fucking love my cousins . i CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THEM. Plus, i love that damn cute angmoh baby i keep seeing at church, she has like short curly blonde hair, GREEN!! eyes and is absolutely chubby. OH YEAH, I LOVE SOFIANA. haha.

And i do love babies too.

oh! oh! Im eating pizza today. YAY ! And i love this song too!!

GUYS, STOP PUSHING YOUR GIRLFRIENDS AROUND.

haah, this song is all bout the guy pushing his girl around. GUESS THE SONG.

pluss, i love the keep holding on song by avril lavigne. The lyrics are like, woah.

Plray for me that i many be able to go out tomorrow. I mean go out with friends. Hope that my family are nt going visiting. I LOVE getting hongpaoss. You know i do. =]]/ but currently, i NEED my friends. What is life without them? The answer is NOTHING!! like, duhduhduh.

Sorry for my really random post todayyy.y. my god im typing like damn fast.,

Hello, how are you? Love your hair, shoes, makeup. Damn, i love you. <33

2007-02-18T23:57:00.000+08:00

I've got new pictures! Damnm, i love them like hell. Plus, my cousins came over. They arre fucking cute alright. Oh and, happy chinese new year ! I;ve got alot of hongpaos!. So envy my red packets. =) Lets seee, today, i ate lots of snacks.. Gawdd,d, i had a real bad tummy ache and felt real sick right after...

2007-02-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

I changed my blogskin!

Im so in love with it.

<33

Happy Chinese New Year Eves to all of you!

I got an hong pao today.

So,

be jealous!

haha...

Im planning to use my money to go for the Fall Out Boys Concert.

SHREYA;

I will meet you there i hope!

plus,

im still gona buy my aviator shades and stuff.

and perhaps put some into my bank or whatever..

Today,

went to some restaurant for lunch//

I tell you....i ate so much there i swear i'll put on alot of weight,

by the end of this chinese new year, i'll be a hippo!

So beware! If i fall on you, i just might squash you. =D

2007-02-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys for not updating my blog.

my Computer was spoilt for like 3-4 weeks?

My blog is a real big mess right now.

Dont worry. I'll fix it lah. =DD

sorry readers!!

Oh yeah,

Happy belated Valentines Day to you all!

plus,

i rebonded my hair!

Finally.

& now,

happy chinese new year.

2007-01-27T17:54:00.000+08:00

I FEEL SO ANGRY.

My mother took away my $50, it was my fucking christmas present from my aunt.

took it away like since last month? She promised to return it back.

But now...dont know lah her.

But, guess what?

My sis and bro also had $50 each. But NNOOOO.....she didnt lend their money...but instead decided to lend my money thinking i have no better use fior it...

so, my sister finally saved enough money to fucking rebond her hair. ( bcos of the $50, she can finally rebond)

She is rebonding her hair right now..

My brother used his money to buy whatever crapshit.

While,

i cant even rebond my hair cause my mother fucking took my money away.

Gosh,

talk about getting rid of injustice in the world when i cant even rid injustice in my own home.

I wish the whole world was bald. That way, nobody would have to feel mad when people take away their money supposingly intended on using it to make their hair better, thus boosting their self-confidence in some way or another...

GAHGAHGAH!

haha, okay.

enough about the world and hair.

i dont think i need to wear ncdcc uniform for quite some time.

Cause its small. This thus proves that i have grown. Infact, i have grown taller. =DD Cause well, im reallyreally tall..cant you see?

After chinese new year, for cca, we should be expecting some hardcore( i hope) training. Im growing fat lah! Need good exercise. =D

I gained 1kg =(

so we cant wait.

AND, sports day is just round the corner.

And fo sure Antreprenuers will be the champions again. =)

Cause last year, dont mean to drag but....WE were the champions last year.

so expect us to be the champions again!

2007-01-24T16:29:00.000+08:00

I think now its OK to take away the passwrd.

I dont think my borther will be checking up on it cause he is too busy playing 'rakion' to even remember my blog.

i made the passwrd real easy didnt I?

haha..

i gotta rush through this post cause my mum is home and she has not a clue bout what im doing

BYE

2007-01-21T16:14:00.000+08:00

Sorry kiddos.

I HAD to put a password. If i didnt..

I would have to;

1)- Change URL

2)- Delete my whole blog.

3)- Delete all information in the blog.

Option 1 is out cause it will lead to complications. And My URL is unique. everyone's URL is unique, by changing it, i'll have to really think of yet another unique URL.

Option 2 is also out cause i have readers and would not want to dissapoint them. ( Indicating someone who made her/his blog private..DONT make it private! Not fun!) Even though i've lost interest in posting as you can see, I do not post as frequent as i used to.

Option 3 is also out as my information is important. ( to me it is lah!)

So there! Which leaves me to security.

I have to put it cause ( i dont mean to be rude but..) my assidioticcrap of a brother wants to read both my sister;s and my own blog.

Its really dangerous and possibly will leave both my sis and myself in a very difficult situation. As, knowing my brother, he loves the whole blackmailing part.

SO DIE! that is why i gotta put a pw, to keep my blog away from family eyes( not including sister)

btw,

the song, 'so contagiously'...credits go to my sister. its from her xanga (blog).

Oh yyeah...today i went IKEA. Bought the huge green snake =D

plus, the more exciting nicer part..

I went for morning church,,, if you have been a dedicated reader of my blog, you will know whats so good bout that.

=DD

2007-01-20T20:41:00.000+08:00

This week has been an awesome one.

I received many things. =D

Thanks sofi for the straightener.

Thanks afiqa for the CD.

Thanks kevin for the MCR album.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh yeah,

except this fucking day,.

I mean, today is just so bloody fucked up. In the morning, my mother and i quarreled...then quarreled again,,,. Damn, she is really unreasonable.

Cant stand it. She said now she has to be so strict with me and all that shit stuff cause im getting now more out of control.

Please...save it for the opera or something.

Im the same person. Mayb its not me but her.

Has it ever occured to you that mayb it really is you.

So yeah...

im sorry mrs PERFECTALMIGHTY

Whoa, im sorry for answering you back and gining you some goddamn fucking excuses which happens to be the truth.

2007-01-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

Wait, gave you the wrong info.

My grandpa is going for the operation really early tmr morning.

Then my mom is gone b there for about a week!

Translated- i have to go to school by myself for a week. A stupid long week.

There is still time to pray for my grandpa =)

So please help me pray!!

Thanks yeah. Love you so much if you do. Really mean it k.

So today, i went to the hospital, my grandpa has to stay over. After the operation, he will stay in the ICU for 2 days then transferred back into the normal care whatever.

Too bad he didnt choose Changi General Hospital, if not i can visit him everyday right after school. Just take bus17 can already.

Anyway,

just hope everything will be alright.

Now,

i feel like barfing. and i have a headache./

* But i dont think i WILL barf. oR i wouldnt b using the comp now.

bahhhh.

headache..

well,,

see you tomorrow.

2007-01-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

My granddad is going for a major operation tomorrow. So, please help me pray that the operation will go smoothly for him.
Thanks.

Just found out from afiqa that we have school hw. How sad right.

2007-01-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

What has happened this week?

It has just been so damn fucked up.

Been suffering from mood swings. So i apologise to those people who has been experiencing my 'emo' mood as you guys call it.

Not emo ,people.

Just fucking depressed.

But thanks for trying to make me smile.

and sofi,

haha,

i do not look sick lah,

Just tired. Neither sick nor pale. Dont worry too much about me. =D

I'll real fine. Honest.

So today,

had cca, my legs are aching.

plus, katherine lost her bag, we had to look around the whole school for it.

so tiring..

just hope she finds it lah.

pity sia, her new handphone is in her bag.

2007-01-07T18:55:00.000+08:00

Im alone at home now.

HAHA,

When i was young, i was afraid of being home alone. I thought ghosts would come and get me or something.

I was pretty weird that time, as i am now.

But hey,

im a matured weird person.

Ohmygod,

can hear like stuff moving around in my living room.

i admit, im still scared now lah. =(

but not as bad as before.

oo, i blasted my speakers real loud,

the only time i can do it is when nooone is at home

. Advantages. =D

I simply LOVE this song.

i can remember the whole lyrics already. haha.

ohh, you are everything im wanting

come to think of it im aching

on account of my transgression

will you welcome this confession

ps: bring storybk or whatever tmr for school

pps: school starts at 8.15am tmr. I kinda forgt too but my friend reminded me so yeah..

see you guys tomorrow.

2007-01-06T21:11:00.000+08:00

In the end i didnt go to the doctor. I told my mom i was alright and all and she believed me so yeah....

Nothing much happened today, but i had chinese tuition for the first time since the holidays started. She bought me presents from china.

I forgt all my chinese things that i learnt. I am so gona suffer terribly.

Which is a 'chingchong' bag, but at least its the thought that counts.

I kinda left my school timetable under the table.

So im completely lost at what to bring.

Im hopeless..i left practically ALL my schoolbks under the table,

so my plans for looking through my geog is now made impossible..

Im afraid i'll flunk most of my subjects. Especially math. If i do fail, i better kiss gdbye to everything that makes my life happy.

So,

i'l be fucking retarded.

fucktard.

The fucktard girl.

which is me lah.

so, my most 'interesting' topic.

is...SCHOOL.

and class 2/5.

getting the hang of it. Not yet close to satisfactory.

But im helping afiqa to decorate the classroom,

so have to stay back one of these days. So mom, i hope you fucking understand. But of course you wouldnt let me help out, so obviously, lying is again the only option.

Thanks mom, that is, for letting me lie everyday of my life.

Without you,

i wouldnt be such a pro at it already.

ah,

tmr i wanted to go church in the morning.

Reasons-

-morning church is nice..

-the cute guy i know goes for morning church.

But my mom said no.

Our conversation went like this over the decision

Me: Can i go for morning church tmr?

Mom: No. We'll go for the evening one

Me: Why? Me, bran and fran wants to go for the morning one. Three against one.

Mom: because maybe we'll be going out tmr morning. You know sunday is the only day we can spend time together with your father.

Me: Uh huh.But still,. i dont want to go for the evening one.

SO,

no cute guy.

awww, wasted right.

but i've totally given up on guys.

Thats what i led myself to think.

Who knows.

2007-01-05T18:56:00.001+08:00

The first week of school is coming to end.

So glad.

I swear i could sleep in class.

Been feeling terrible these days.

I cant sleep at night regardless of how tired i am.

But i will eventually fall asleep around 4am.

Yes, my sleeping problem is coming back

So i'll be yawning the whole day in school

More to it,

im down with a effing irritating cough and flu.

I';ve not been eating any fucking meals.

My mum is insisting to take me down to the doctor now.

So i got to hurry up with this post.

*types real fast*

But why go to the doctor when we already have cough medicine,

sheesh! waste money.

Omfg, my mum to talking to Zoya...

Oh,

she bit me just not.

fuck her.

She is like so violent right now.

haha.

oh no' my phone battery is freaking low

and i miss 1/8.

AHHH,

My mom is nagging for me to hurry up or we'll have to wait for the doctor.

yadayadayada.

its not MY problem,.

i dont want to waste money at some doctor.

k, i have to go.

ah shits,

will post tmr.

ps: took my real long to find this fucking blogskin bcos apparently ppl make ALOT of blogskins on LOVE. its not like i have a freaking guy or something and so it makes it haRD TO find a blogskin. SOME PEOPLE WANT TO EXPRESS THEIR 'LOVE' BY MAKING LOVE BLOGSKINS WHEN ALOT OF PEOPLE OUT THERE WANTS NON-LOVE BLOGSKINS BCOS WE HAVE N0 LOVE FOR NOONE. WHY CANT THEY MAKE A FUCKING BLOGSKIN NOT BASED ON LOVE. ITS NOT LIKE LOVE IS THE MAIN FOCUS OF BLOGSKINS.

I feel so fucking agitated man..

2007-01-03T19:20:00.000+08:00

Today was the first day of school.

Felt really awkward in my class.

(*Im on the phone with Nizam now.

He forced me to say this:

Nizam into me to radioblog. I am so happy. thank you so much.

And,

HE IS SHORT!!!

haha,. but he does not want to admit it, instead, he counterback saying im shorter than him.

And then start telling me about hormones.)

HAHA.

about the first day of school, IT FEELS SO UNCOMFORTABLE.

Miss one-eight more than ever now.

I dont really like the new discipline mistress,

She is so strict that it makes everyone shrivel just to hear her voice.

Other than that, my form teacher is OK.

My hair is so not nice...

i hateitjustalittlebit.

oh yeah,

regarding that song i wanted to download,

i added it onto the account nizam introduced to me.

I can hear it on the comp but cant download into my mp3.

Its not THAT bad.

At least i can still listen to it.

Im dreading school that before it even began now.

My CLASS makes me snizzle

it is OK, but just not 1/8.

(god, my ear hurts...the phone is killing my ear.)

i only like recess. Im free to roam in the school.

In class i can only think of sleeping.

I wish we could rearrange our chairs and pick our seats.

....

that way, will be more awake.

My fucking schoolbag is so heavy i think i'll drop to the ground just carrying it.

Its kinda fat too.

AND myhairkinda suckstoo.

so i'll be one heavycarryingschoolbaguglyhairandugly girl.

that really sucks.

Alot.

I think im losing weight. My dad said so too.

I lost my appetite.

awww, plus, the good thing is, im much tanner.

but other than that,

still the same old nutcase.

-.-

ps; i didnt sleeep last night, im damn tired. I think i'll get real heavy eyebags.

PPs: I love starwars truckloads! <33>.

2007-01-02T18:32:00.000+08:00

This is really bugging me out.

The fact that I cant download new songs.

There is like so much i wana download.

Then i can put it into my mp3 and listen to it everynight.

Its like, im listening to the same songs over and over.

This is madness...

Oh yeah, and that school is re-opening tmr is adding more madness to my already mad brain.

at least i got to hear nice stuff.

These days, overseas people keeps calling my house. ( NOT STRANGERS. They are my relatives.)

I like their accents.

So WEIRD! actually not weird but veryvery nice to listen to.

There is my aunt from australia, i've never met her bfore. This is the first time i talked to her on the phone. ( But her accent does not sound like australian)

And also, my uncle from bencouver called.

they have such Nice accent that it forces you to have a cool accent too when you talk to them!!

Plus, my aunt from australia does not know the meaning of 'handphone'.

I was explaining it to her and she was not getting me.

Apparently, they refer handphones as 'mobile' or 'cellphone'.

Nice huh.

Tonight at 9.00pm, they are showing Star Wars-Attack of the Clones on Channel 58.

Im of course gona go watch it and drool over hot anakin skywalker.

That means i can sleep late on a so-called school night!!

plus,

afiqa told me her choir teacher told her that mayb school ends at 12.30 and there will be no lessons, hope she is right,.

NOW, im falling in love with this song that i badly want to download.

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line)

To say you're the only one breaking me down like this

You're the only one I would take a shot on

Keep me hanging on so contagiously..

2007-01-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year y'all !!

Hope the year 2007 will be more exciting.

School is going to reopen on Wednesday.

Just two more days from now.

Actually its gona be midnight soon.

Have no idea what to bring...

perhaps just a notebook & pencil case.

Just came back from my uncle;s house.

Its because my grandparents are staying there,

so went there for dinner.

And,

yesterday, my mum went to the airport to pick up my grandma's friend,

the last time i saw her was on June 2006.

So,

she is also staying at my uncle's house.

She is a great cook!

I spent the countdown at one of my friend;s house.

issabelle and nicky's.

and watched starwars there. =)

revenge of the sith.

There was a bbq.

Good food..

Came home at like, 2.30am.

then today,

my sis and I were forced to wake up so early..

at 10.30am..

my brother was like, hitting us with a pillow to wake us up.

He is so weird.

My dad planned to take us fishing..

and....i caught about 6 fishes.

=D but the size of the fishes are about 15cm.

So small.

Prefer the fishing trip at phuket this month.

Caught tuna the size of 48cm i think.

Real big.

I have good news,

actually good news for me...

my hair is like, growing so fast,

my fringe is under my eyebrow,

and, my hair aint that bob anymore.!

Thank God.

2006-12-29T17:45:00.000+08:00

I shall be heading off to the airport in a few hours.

Why?

Cause Im going to Russia!!

Believe me?

If you do believe me, then, HAHA.

Im just kidding.

I will go Russia one day, but not today.

My grandparents are coming back to Singapore today and we are gona go to the airport to fetch them.

They had to come cause my granddad needs to attend one of the hospitals here, in singapore.

He is kinda not feeling well. But well enough to come back to singapore.

I wished they will stay in Singapore for good.

Not saying migrating to bangkok is a bad thing.

Its a nice place. Things are cheap.

But, the truth is, they are not as young as they used to be.

They is no more relatives living there anymore.

Her daughter and family migrated AGAIN to shanghai

And if anything happens to them,

WHO CAN HELP THEM?

I love them too much to allow this to happen!

i strongly suggest they live in singapore permanently.

but my granddad loves bangkok.

BUT

in the end, its their choice

So, let just leave the matter into adults hands.

Ps: not saying im not an adult. I AM.An adult i mean.A mini adult. But just leave it into older adult's hands.

Lets go back to star wars.

ITS AN ADDICTION. I know okay.

or,

lets talk about tv shows.

Everyday,

i watch the Animal Planet. Channel 10.

Its actually reallyreally interesting.

So call me a whatever.

I happen to LOVE animals.

And am considering getting a baby aligator.

My father approves. oh wait, he could just be kidding.

Just like the time he wanted to buy that snake!

but i think he really wanted to buy that snake. Considering how he really liked the green snake and took out the money from the wallet, then my mum totally freaked which cause him to withdraw his actions, thus leaving us without a snake.

Im so considering working in the zoo.

I watched on animal planet how the australia zoo works. I hope singapore is the same. They still show many of steve irwin;s documentries. Im very grateful.

But im not gona be a vetenarian.

Did you watch Dr. Dolittle.

The vet stuck his hand up the dog's ass to retrieve the thermometer.

No way is my hand going up anyone's ass!

Eww!

I wana hear what animals are saying,

that way, i can bond better with Zoya.

She is such a cutey. More cuter than my sister's nameless bird.

That bird is totally protective of zoya. If difficult to take zoya out from her cage without being bitten. bUT I dont mind being bitten, it does not even hurt anyway...

I have been forbidden to watch MTV and wwe.

Its because my dad is afraid me and my sis will bcome like those girls on mtv, like laguna beach, where they party and spend money.

& wwe as he put its,

is violence. And totally not educational and not for kids.

And we will inflict destruction among siblings.

SHEESH! my brother and me fight violently everyday. It hurts but it makes you tough. You dont want a weak dad now, do you dad?

I managed to punch my bro's stomach today! =D

then he hit my chin -.-

Name calling seems easier sometimes.

Anyway, before i got distrated by violence being inflicted among eachother, My sister and me still watches mtv and wwe with my bro.

What he doesnt know wont hurt him.

Trust me.

Its bad enouh the world is full of shit and everything else parents worry that will do damage to you. Might as well enjoy entertainment in the safety of your living room on the couch.

GIVE AND TAKE.

to b safe, let us watch tv!

pps: my hair is fugly. FUGLY.

I pinn up my fringe every fucking day.

It helps swallow down the huge fugly-ness.

heyy,

i have to go get ready to go to the airport.

BTW,

IM HAVING SPAGHETTI BOLONESE FOR DINNER!!

my mom cooked it.

TATA.

HAPPY BITHDAY LYN!

2006-12-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

Few more days left till school reopens.

Im neither anxious or looking forward to it.

We are gona be in different classes, separated from sec1 classmates.

Further more,

we'll be sec2s.

And there'll be new sec1s coming to join us.

okay. enough of next year.

Has anyone of you been watching all the episodes of star wars lately?

I simply LOVE starwars.

love the first three episodes.

haha,

in episode 1

there is like, qui gon ginn (AHH dont know how to spell.)

and he is good. but abit old. pity he got killed by that evil guy

i like his face paint and red double light saber.

& there is the the younger version of obi-wan and anakin skywalker and queen amidala.

nice!

Episode 2

the reallyreally handsome anakin skywalker( hayden christensen) grows up.

he is real handsome =)

Falls in love with queen amidala/padme (natalie portman-really pretty).

& married her

and then, he show signs of the darkforce

which is

- a jedi shall not LOVE (fell in love with padme/queen amidala)

- a jedi shall not FEAR ( feared what would happen of his mother)

- a jedi shall not feel ANGER/hatred/revenge ( killed everyone after they killed his mother)

- a jedi knows no emotions. ( feelss alot of things.)

Episode 3

Becomes a real strong jedi and even more handsome

But then he entered the Dark Side of the Force

what a pity. =(

And took evil palpatine's side( the sith master)

he killed mace windu ;(

And then killed all the young jedi !

kill manymany people.

anakin chokes padme

duels with obi-wan(his master)

obi-wan slices anakin's legs and arm.

and falls into the larva. looks horrible after that.

Padme gives birth to twins, leia and luck skywalker.

then dies after birth due to the choking and child birth

Anakin, looking horrible and barely alive,

is saved by master sith where he has to wear a suit

and became Darth Vadar. evilevil. dark side of the force.

he screams when he heard he kinda cause the death of padme.

luke and leia gets separated.

continue in the episode 3 4 5.

where darth vadar eventually turns to the good side because he couldnt kill Luke Skywalker, his son.

then he dies without his suit.

2006-12-26T23:44:00.000+08:00

Forgot to say Merry Christmas yesterday.

Opened up all my presents.

Was nice.

But some of them were like, so not my style.\

Today was katherine's birthday.

Went out to celebrate,,

watched 'Night at the museum'

Its reallyy funny.

Wore my red pumps.

Got real bad shoe bites.

Suckss.

Happy Birthday Katherine!

Now im having a bad tummy ache,

better go to bed now i guess.

Still hating my hair,

wishing for better things.

2006-12-24T18:06:00.000+08:00

I've got an early christmas present!!

Which is,

my very own little baby!

Its actually a bird, hatched a month ago.

My dad bought one for me and another for my sister.

=D. I LOVE MY BABY SO MUCH.

Its chirp is so cute!!

its so tiny, my baby bird.

I named it, Zoya.

My sister hasnt named her;s yet but my Zoya is the youngest.

The best thing about it is that,

I CAN CARRY IT!!

Cause obviously its a baby, so cant fly yet.

I dont want it ever to fly, so have to trimm the feathers on the wings.

It cant balance on my finger yet but it can just like, nestle up on my palm.

Zoya is soo active. and cute, and fluffy!!

Now, i have to train it to respond to its name.

And when it gets bigger, can teach her other things.

I have to feed her using a syringe cause she cant eat on her own yet.

I absolutely adore her!

So,

Im her mother!!

I'l take a pic of her some other time and show it to you guys.

Oh ya,

this means i might as well lose all hope of ever rebonding my fucked up hair.

No money equals, no straight hair.

2006-12-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

The holiday at thailand was really fun.

i MEAN it.

but the last day crashed everything.

My dad forced my sister and me to cut our hair,.

So we went STRAIGHT to the hairdresser right after coming out of the airport because of some misunderstanding.

But whatever...

My sis and I were like, so bummed out.

Almost in tears.

Then reached there.

They cut our hair.

We were both crying.

SO AWFUL THE HAIRCUT.

Our fringe is SUPER short.

and BOB.

Its a shorrt bob with short fringe.

Seriously saying,

we look like a bitch of a traditional japanese doll.

So i gave my sis a nickname, Japan.

Which she actually responds to. =D

Went home,

cried the shit out of ourselves.

Everyday. untill now.

We promised each other that we will stand by each other no matter what.

hhaha...

so now, we will go through whatever bad things together....

SO NOW,

OUR HAIR SUCKSS.

my mum refuses to lend me money to rebond my hair!!! =(

doom day is coming near- school reopen.

ooohhh,

CHRISTMAS EVE IS TMR.

2006-12-17T15:40:00.000+08:00

to sofi;

I FUCKING MISS YOU !

i hope this brightens up your day.

haha,.

Ever since we changed the position of the bed in my room,

i can sleep better!!

YAY.

All i can is that......

The Feng Shui is GOOO0D~~~!!

Its better than good.

Actually, its.......perfect.

Too bad i wont be in my bed for the next few days..

I'd better say BYEBYE to you all first.

Cause, Im leaving singapore tomorrow!!

To those who are not going overseas,

then....

suck your thumb and sulk.

haha...just kidding.

I hope you guys are having a great time in singapore.

so, we're getting up at 4am in the morning.

Might as well not even sleep.

right?

My bags are packed.

Its sitting at the foot of my bed.

everything is reall nice.

But we'll be celebrating christmas in singapore.

I do hope my mum makes her shepherd;s pie and all.

And turkey?

More likely to be chicken. Fo sure.

oh ya,

went out with lyn and shuting yesterday,.

Watched the show, ERAGON, damn, its kinda nice. The main focus of the show is about dragons and their riders. called, dragon riders.

Real sweet. You should watch it!

The idea of it all is really creative.

Besides going out,

been doing nothing much except reading.

My current 'obsession' : Reading a book called , Zoya.

It makes me feel like going to Russia, and visit St. petersburg.

There's a contess and a Tsar and everything.

Rather fascinating.

You should borrow the book. And get hooked up.

Few last words before i end this post.

TATA !! so-long.

2006-12-14T20:59:00.000+08:00

Well,

today we painted my room red.

Love it.

Really bright and looks like something is burning.

plus,

we rearranged the furniture in my room.

Looks realllyyy spacious,.

Tmr perhaps we'll be going out.

To where?

No idea.

But i just hope i can get somewhere.

then,,

saturday//

going out with some primary school friends.

Had to get them christmas presents and stuff.

& now,

Im completely broke.

realllreally BROKE.

i think i have 30cents in my cupboard.

Maybe i do..

Can go to those little 20 cents toy machine.

the turning thing, until the little plastic ball drops./

Except,..

I dont want anything from there...

2006-12-12T16:54:00.000+08:00

I wish it could snow right now.

I never touched snow ever before.

That would be my dying wish.

to touch snow?

haha, maybe.

In honour of christmas,

i shall put a christmas theme blogskin!

My mom already has the christmas tree up.

She decorated pretty much alot of things.

Thankgod there aint no mistletoe.

Im having a bad feeling bout this christmas.

What if we have so little presents?

I only have like 2?

stil expecting some from my relatives.

My uncle gives the nicest presents.

Pretty much everyday,

we wake up to the sound of christmas carols.

My mom plays it in the morning..

YAYAYAYAY!!

my neighbour just gave me a christmas present!!

ohhh, they always give gifts from the bodyshop

its nice.

Plus they gave me a stuff dog.

sweet.

....

im hungry.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYSSA!!

2006-12-11T19:33:00.000+08:00

ahhh

Cant stand my cellphone.

Its spoilt and lousy.

At least my sister's phone is in worse condition!

But i will get a new one

Soon.

VERYvery soon.

I think.

Must have a word with my dad bout buying me a new one.

And i almost got busted two nights ago.

My sis and i were on the phone at like, 3am.

then we dad came home and we hid our phones.

But my dad found mine and thank god he didnt see that someone was on the other line.

I would be so deadd~

ooohh.

my primary school friend just called.

Saying she wants to go out for lunch on saturday.

woah. she like, tranferred to a diff school in pri4

& i kinda lost in touch with her for awhile.

she's nice though.

And,

i'll be away next week

Going thailand.

finallyy get to go on a plane.

the last time was years ago.

I love the service!

my sis and I planned on taking manymany pictures.

and by the way,

I really really do suck at algebra

2006-12-11T00:08:00.001+08:00

I went to the party..

was nice.

I've got some pictures. Will upload tomorrow.

So,

my mom wants me to start on algebra on like, monday.

I suck at math and you know it.

I am just not born to excel in anything to do with numbers.

I mean, i was good in promary school.

But it isnt the same now.

I so cant wait to get out of singapore.

i HATE nighttime.

I suffer from insomnia

but my mom does not want to believe it.

and so, she starts making up excuses for me.

I cant take not sleeping.

It seriously will drive you to the edge.

I didnt sleep all night last night.

I wasnt talking on the phone or whatever.

I just cant sleep.

then, that's the part where i started to turn mad.

Like,

real bad.

The worst breakdown i have ever had.

Not gona tell what happened.

Too embarassed.

I want sleeping pills..

i cant afford to sleep at 5am or not sleep at all.

My 13 year old body cannot handle not sleeping.

Its stressful...

I REALLY REALLY

want sleeping pills.

or i could get sick and go to the doctor

and they will give me those pills that will make you drowsy.

Simply speaking,

i need sleep...

2006-12-08T18:04:00.000+08:00

I think my brother is suffering from apergers symdrome.

I so hope he is,

so his behaviour can be totally explainable.

I watched prison break season 2 on youtube.

Wentworth miller is so hot.

i'll admit it everyday.

plus,

he was in mariah carey's its like that and we belong together music video.

still looking hot then.

So,

there's now many songs in my psp..

i hope i can go to alyssa's b'day party.

bring along my psp.

Show off abit.

And make you guys jealous!!

BAHH!

nahh,

im not so evil.

I will let you guys play with it!

Only if my mum lets me go...

I've been doing my homework everyday, OFFERING to go down to buy food, following my mum to the grocery store in hopes that she will like, let me go to the party for doing so manymany nice things.

I can only pray and hope.

PS: if you wana go to alyssa;s b'day party, call her. Regardless of whether you are diff class from her. if you want to go, just contact her. =D

but,

have no idea what present to buy for her.

i only have $4.

and i was planning to share my money with my sister so that we can buy a pet mice and name it cactus!!!

but,

whatever.

She is more important than the cutelittlesweety mice.

and then

i still have to rebond my hair and buy my hoodie and taple my jeans...

PPS: sorry for this really random post.

my daughter is turning 13!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finallyyyy. the lasts of my daughters.

now they are miniature adults.

yay!!

ahha,

and talked to alyssa for about two hours around 2am last night,.

tired sia.

2006-12-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

We've got a PSP !!

haha,

its about time.

So glad.

So later we're gona put in all the songs.

Its soo nice.

2006-12-03T20:44:00.000+08:00

There's Lord of the rings on tv right now.

so love that movie

and guess what?

I've found someone who loves to watch war movies too!

Actually,

she found that i liked them too and then she told me she like them too.

& we were so happy.

HAHA itss afiqa.

went shopping today.

-.- & found some things i wana ask my grandma to buy.

So,

today went to the airport to see my grandparents off.

hopefully can spend christmas in bangkok with them.

would love to.

But all the flights are like, booked.

& this year we would have to spend our holidays in malaysia..

its not bad thought but i really wana get on the plane.

Cause i so love the service.

Order up!

2006-12-02T18:44:00.000+08:00

Haha, today i skipped going to church.

So perhaps tmr i'll be going.

Today,

my adorable grandparents came down to simei.

They are flying back to bangkok tmr.

Would so miss them.

Their cuteness can drive you to love them so much more.

There's like so many clothes shop at eastpoint now.

so my sis and I was like finding some clothes to ask my grandma to buy.

She found some,

but i didnt.

Cant find a nice hoodie...

so tired now,

because didnt sleep last night.

I blame nizam!

haha..

it was like 3am in the morning,

i was text messaging a friend..

& trying to sleep/

Then nizam send me a msg,

then later found i was awake

so called me.

And guess up,

we stayed up the whole night,.

from 3am to like almost 7.30am

haha,

more than 4 hours on the phone.

Didnt get busted or anything cause my sis was also talking on the phone.

so it was around 7.30am,

the sun was up, the birds were chirping.

then had to go back to bed bfore our dads found out.

HAha,

it all started with his msg..

that i didnt sleep throughout the night.

we chatted about lame things and sang nursery rhymes.

haha, how lame can we be?

ps:

i didnt get to play The Lord of the Rings yesterday.

;(

2006-12-01T20:45:00.000+08:00

The bbq last night was awesome.

Will blog about it into details perhaps tomorrow.

Or never.

But had lots to fun.

Hope to have more oneeight bbqs.

Cheers!

HAPPY B'DAY GILLIAN!''

Been playing xbox almost everyday now.

Its has now become my addiction.

Its because we bought a new game.

Its,,,,

Lord of the rings!!

I recommend you to buy it too.

Real nice!

So,

my grandmother(father's side) wants to take us shopping to buy our christmas presents.

Havent really decided what i want.

I guess some jeans, or shirts, or dress.

The budget for me is lke $60

so, my brother is getting the WWE xbox game,

my sister is getting some clothes that she saw.

Speaking of wwe,

totally cant wait to get the cd for the survivor series.

the matches are like WOAH.

The Undertaker Vs. Mr Kennedy

Batisah(nt sure how to spell) Vs. King Booker

and the team Cena Vs team i forgt.

Confused.

But batisah, undertaker will totally win

Cos undertaker is like the god of wrestling.

and batisah is such a nice person,.

2006-11-28T20:41:00.001+08:00

http://youtube.com/watch?v=PHtrjqVFXp4

A truly Nice song.

& if you haven't yet light a candle,

www.lightamillioncandles.com

one time is enough. ;D

Today i woke up to the sound of christmas songs.

Sofi,

haha, that explains why i kept singing christmas carols.

;)

So, went to support the stars group.

They came in third.

Congrats!

Then after that,

all of us went to seng siong.

hha, no idea of how to spell.

But you get the idea.

So,

we went there to to buy food for the bbq

cause its cheap over there.

oh ya,

pls light a candle alright.

Your support would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks!

2006-11-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

Went to Ms tan& Mr. teo's wedding yesterday,.

And she's officially Mrs Doris Teo.

HaHa. Sounds really weird.

oh ya, she looked real pretty in her gown.

I got to throw rose petals at her!

And we saw them kiss and all that. ;D

pitypity, for those who didnt go.

So,

for the next few days, we're gona be really busy..

Okay, except tomorrow...

But on tuesday,

Have to support the Stars group.

Get to wear school uniform again!

Then after that,

gona go shopping! at umm, ntuc

haha, for the class bbq.

And aishah said she dont like my blog song.

she broke my little fragile heart! just kidding lahh.

my heart is still one complete thingy thing.

but does the song sound awful?

If it is, i'll so totally change it,

But but,,, i like this song.

I wish i could get a treadmill. =D

So can run, indoors, on the exact same place.

2006-11-23T20:58:00.000+08:00

Bought new clothes for the wedding!!

Expensive but at least im not thinking bout it anymore.

haha,

for those who has not yet found something to wear,

good luck! & hope you find something.

umm,

today my mum was learning spanish on the computer

, cause she bought the disc,

Really funny.

its part of my entertainment today bsides the shopping part.

Oh,

i hate to be grounded.

I feel so pathetic.

Little things like that, I call it my entertainment.

But hey,

at least im laughing abit.

& i woke up at 10am today!

early early.

Usually get out of bed at between 10.45 -1.00

& and the best thing of it all,

I skip morning! and miss all those arguments.

; )

oh damn,, i need plasters.

the new shoe is causing me serious hardcore shoebites.

i wouldnt wear it, but its just so nice.

And,

i need to wear it out so that my mum would not scold me for wasting her money and begging her to buy me something and not even use it but chuck it aside and then she will go on to her talk about how she would never buy me anything i dont really need again and scold me on how i never put things back after im done with it.

headsmashingpaincausing things these are...

2006-11-22T16:05:00.000+08:00

I love to watch little mermaid
And i love shopping carts too!

2006-11-21T22:25:00.000+08:00

Went out with my grandparents today..

I love them ever so much,

My head is so screwed up. Everything i so fucking irritating, complicating... I hope it just ends now. I dont fucking care about much now. Maybe attending ms tan's wedding is not a good idea. Like come on,, i dont hav a god damn thing to wear, its totally annoying and not good for my fucking brain at all. Life at the moment is not what i hoped it would be.

2006-11-19T21:55:00.000+08:00

BAH!

Im gona dance weird dances with afiqa next year!

So be jealous~

Watched 'little man' at my aunts hse.

the porn star part was humourous!

googoogaga.

HAHA. cute.

me& sofi have hidden forces of evil.

We kick-butt!

So beware.

* You've been warned.

I love my grandparents.

They are cuter than cute.

& i love my cousins,

zuriel, tristian& shavonne.

& my other cousins.

2006-11-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

Tell you what,

When im of age,

i'll go to the club zouk with my girls.

We'll dance to the song dirty by christina aguilera

Get drunk and party till over midnight!

Patience.

Like 5 more years?

around there..

Do they have any other loud crowds by teenagers.

Where it is dark with colourful lights moving

and the dj hitting on hot songs.

Everyone is dancing,

and getting high!

haha, just kidding about the high part

2006-11-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

I wish i had magical powers.

So that i can dissapear whenever i want to

to not be able to feel anything.

To be empty inside.

If one starves,

maybe,

just maybe,

you could become so skinny and small

that you just might,

vanish..

2006-11-16T21:04:00.000+08:00

Havent gone to school to see the posting..

But,

Four nice people told me that im going,,

to class 2/5

I need to see that fucked up list myself..

1/8 is like all over the place.

The people is 2/5 are kinda cool,

but im complaining bcos THEY ALL not in the class...

And oh,

fuck the system and i hope they all just drop dead.

2006-11-14T17:27:00.000+08:00

Everything is dead

or,

seems so dead.

And oh,

Im a failure.

2006-11-13T20:41:00.000+08:00

I hope you guys are having a great holiday.
Cause mine sucks.

The wedding on december is postponed!
Damn, was suppose to be in malaysia.

And i was actually like looking forward to it.

We even bought new dresses!
And im like related to them in dunoo what way

HEYHEY,
I just found out about my 2nd cousins!
They are super adorable
They are related through my mother's cousin's kids.
Which makes them my 2nd cousins!,
I've got pictures!!!

They are ubberly adorable!

poem

2006-11-12T18:41:00.000+08:00

Baby,

I know beautiful things dont last forever,

that's why im holding on to you tightly

Tired,

the only word to describe how i feel.

Perhaps empty is yet a word to be added.

Yes empty.,

exactly.

I had a nightmare lastnight,

to many of you, a dream..

But it seemed too real,

the reality of which scared me

i woke up,

the images yet still so clear in my mind

and I whispered ever so soft,

for hope that each word would leave me

to forget all my hopes and dreams

solemn promises,

that's all i could ever hope to offer.

Not trying to think of what i know

i can never have.

It leaves me ever so empty,

dark,isolated.

Yup,

those words are perfectly right.

2006-11-11T17:17:00.000+08:00

Going out soon to have dinner with my mom
Since its the only way i can get out of the house.
Considering im gounded and all..

oh yes,
HAPPY B'DAY AFIQ!

I hope we're going to a restaurant!
And then go shopping..

The rain was so hardcore today,,
Missed it.

I've been going back to sketching.

Its boring at home.

Being at home makes me ubberly lazy!

I could sleep all day.

But my parents scolded me for sleeping to long.

The other day i woke up at 1pm.

Its because I slept at like 3am,,,

I need to shower and do my hair!

Got back my straightener!

Can do my fringe!!!

Thank god.

It becoming so curly..

yeah

2006-11-10T19:19:00.000+08:00

Changed my blog song again.

nice?

Discussed about the class bbq the last night

Had a hard time discussing

So whoever wana complain,

then just shut the fuck up and dont go.

Details at class blog.

You guys see which date is most comfortable

tell us by sunday.

2006-11-09T20:01:00.000+08:00

TADDAA!

AFIQA~!!

Im doing the quiz!

5 snacks i enjoy

- Chilli flavoured potato chips( spicy!<3)

- Chocolates (YAY!)

- Marshmellow <3

- Chocolate chip cookies!!!

- Gummy bears ( very chewy=D)

5 things i do with $100million

-Rebond hair ( yayyay)

- Buy more clothes

- Eat out with friends( we all very greedy =D)

- go overseas!!!

- buy new cellphone

5 places i will run away to

- ohio ( ohio is for lovers!! )

- california

- go laguna beach can meet the gang.=D

- Russia. ( sightseeing<33)

- Friends house

5 things i will never wear

- those girly pattern jeans

- mickey mouse shirt

- bubble skirts

- longlonglong denim skirts

- those' clothings. ( cannot be stated :p)

5 bad habits

- daydream( cant help it. Comes naturally)

- listen to mp3 while i fall asleep ( waste battery!)

- cant stop fidgeting ( haha..aishah..)

- putting tip of index finger into mouth ( yesyes, bad habit!)

- Jumping around when watching scary movies ( its because of the tension!)

5 people to do this quiz

-my friend

-someone

-my friendly ghost

- the one!

- and,,,,drumroll,,, YOU are the lucky one too!

2006-11-08T20:40:00.000+08:00

Last night slept soo late.

Cause I was reading a veryvery nice book,

Title= The tenth circle

you should try reading it.

Im a bookworm. =D

Surprise surprise?

I've gone back to doodling, sketching, and sketching now.

Cause Im grounded.

And oh-so bored.

But its a good hobby. ;)

My moms wants me to take up math tuition.

I so dont need it. Yet.

I wana study myself for math next year.

Its not like i failed math.

I think Im entering 2/8 nxt year.

Based on mine and everyone's else calculations that is,

If its right.

YAY. Im in an 2EIGHTER class.

My mums wants to put up the christmas tree next week

Bought manymany tree decorations.

Have to go shopping again for to buy presents for other people.

tiring~

I MISS MY YAYAY LADIES AND BANANA TOAST!

AND ONEEIGHT!!

Im suppose to go out with sofi

To take neos!

Seems like my plans are all ruined,,

i wana watch the old power rangers again!

Got kimberly inside...and the green and white ranger

But the tapes are all so OLD and cannot be played.

: (

pink,yellow,red,blue,green,white rangers!

the stupid robot and the other ghost face somethingsomething

I miss watching them!

You guys noticed the the OLD pink ranger wears a skirt while the yellow does not? But only sometimes.

NEVERMIND.

I'll ask my brother to find them for me.

But mostly is ultraman and pokemon and iforgotthename.

all the OLD.OLD ones.

OHOH. I gtg. BYEBYE

2006-11-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to SHAO JUN & SERA!

=D. Happy sweet 13th!

Tmr's Cherie's b'day! I think. =D

Went to seoul garden to celebrate.

ate alot...

2006-11-03T19:57:00.000+08:00

I love PRISON BREAK!

Not only is the show nice to watch,

The actor Wentworth Miller is simply HOTHOTHOT!

See his pictures upthere. You cant deny it.

I <33

Some parts of it though,,

Nice but tough and tiring.

Btw,

We got promoted at 12am!

Once in a lifetime. =D

We are officially LANCE CORPORAL little cadets!

2006-10-31T16:41:00.000+08:00

www.lightamillioncandles.com

For children that has been sexually abused.

Give your support!

2006-10-30T18:30:00.000+08:00

Im gona change my blogskin real soon.
I said this countless times.
But i really mean it now.
But i usually take a real long time to finally find the ultramost nicest skin.
Im picky. Dont you know?

I love my yayay ladies!!!<33
Not to mention star wars and power rangers.
Cause they are simply superb!

Im angry at blogger!
I wrote a super long post yesterday and the day before and it couldnt be uploaded!
Waste my effort.

Today I went back to school to get my report book.
The results were OKAY.
Oh oh,
I got the 18th position in class and 86th for level posiiton.
=D YAY.
Me and sofi wanted to bring cameras!
The magical equipment that technology invented!
God, i love technology.
And snap many pictures of you and your parents in school!
YAY for technology!
But then, abandoned the idea.
But nevertheless technology is GREAT!

On wednesday,
I won't be around for 2 days or so.
I'll be going for My ncdcc camp.
But,,
Dont fret that you would not be able to contact me
Cause,,,,,
Im bringing another of technology's great invention.
That is, the magical handphone!
It will be left unattended during the day
So, dont holler me but leave me a msg
And when I return to camp base, I will simply reply your msg.
Sounds simple?

Good. =)

2 days ago I when out with my grandparents.
I love them so much
They are pretty cool people
Really. Im dead serious
Cooler than Ice cubes.=)>br?

2006-10-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

Its all just so fucked up.

The news that 1/8 will be spilting next year.

Its like,

We're a family.

They are my other family.

One of the best ever.

Im gona miss them so much. I dont want to change class.

I dont want us to be separated.

I love one eight. =)

They make my heart beat real fastt. =)

Cause I lovelove them too much!

Stupid lahh all this crap.

Just sucks.

What happened on the last day of school...

HAHA. Very nice =D

For the 1/8 girls interclass games, we won 3rd place!

Not bad right. 1/8 guys won 2nd. =D

Hmmm...

After that was recess.

Merl, lj and myself decided to play soccer with the guys during recess simce it was the last day. Nice! But tiring.

Then,

in the hall, found out that mr. Tan was retiring. After 4o years of teaching!

Then 1/8 made so much noice with all our clapping and screaming of 'WOO!!!'

REAL CUTE LAH!

Then this is super cute, 1/8 girls go shout so loud.

' MR TAN, 1/8 LOVES YOU!!'

Cool right. =)

We are officially invited to ms Doris Tan's wedding!

After school,

ate at Macdonalds for free! kaixuan blanja =)

Then saw Afiq's brother. Cute!

Then when elvin's hse below to play soccer again

Girls and guys mixed together.

Then at .00 rained really heavily. Continued to play..

At 3.30 i left with some others and we took a stroll under the rain.

Then got so wet!. A nice long~ slow walk. =)

Then we blowed dry our hair using the hand dryer at whitesands.

And went home!/

End ~

2006-10-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

Alleluia.

It rained HEAVILY today.

Finally.

And we rejoiced!

OLE! We'll go dancing in the rain and sing christmas songs till december.

Kai xuan gona blanja us at mac's!!

FREE =)

Fun fit fabulous today,,,,

it was quite fun.

Must admit.

But the best thing that happened:

We earned alot of money

for,,,

CHARITY!

I think they will surely be very thankful

We are such kind people =)

YES YES.

We did some prepareness stuff.

Organized by NCDCC

....or something related to that. But almost the same thing.

Very hot~ Must tape up the room.~

Dear Diary,

today I played bowman on the internet. I shot many birds. =)

Im making a difference in the world. Kill bird flu in computers. =)

Stop cyber bird flu stuff from spreading in your pc.

This is such a random post that i'll think i'll shoot the bird's brains. =)

Aishah owes me $1.30

Merlissa owes me $0.50

I met an australian old man!!!

He's ang moh =0

And has a very interesting accent=)

Aishah says i like to fidget alot.

Like a worm?

Fidgeting is good for the body.

Great workout!

I recommend it to you.

FIDGETING, A NEW GOOD HEALTHY WORKOUT!

2006-10-23T18:44:00.000+08:00

Fuck him...

so many things i wana tell him.
especially to fuck off away from me..

2006-10-21T17:22:00.000+08:00

I was forced to cut my hair. Again

It sucks.

So much....

My family is slowly growing further away from eachother.

It is awful..

One day we were happy? The next..oh no..

Everything sucks.

I look at my self in the mirror and I say,

'who the hell is that awful looking girl?'

I look tired, sick, depressed

Add on,,,

my hair sucks even more

super short..

2006-10-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

Took a new picture last night
Fulfilled my cam-whoring cravings.
YAY.

Today was a terrible day.

Was on our way to eat lunch as a family.

Dad was driving.

Got so upset with us later, scolded us in the car real bad. Never seen him this angry with us before. he scolded mainly my sister and then drove us all back home without lunch and he went off.

At home, everyone decided secretly it was better not to talk. Was so moody.

On days like this, I wish that I could just dissapear....

Tomorrow's a school day!

Nothing to do but slack.

YAY again.

2006-10-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

Bought that sweater today.

Got the green one instead

Not with my money, but my moms.

Im gona buy those shades.

They are really affordable.

I asked my money if she could lend me some money to reborn my hair.

She said reborning hair is a total waste of money.

It will go back to been wavy.

A total waste for me that is. She told me that my hair was to curly to rebond. Sooner or later it would return back to its original form.

But whatever.

Let her talk.

Im still gona rebond despite her judgements.

Its,like, my hair anyway.

And some people are like so lucky to be born with natural straight hair.

Oh god, I really like their sex hair......

I wish I could have it.- i could, if i rebonded...

Parents are leaving us alone at home today.

They are going out for dinner.

Mum bought many clothes, did her eyebrows and hair today.

Me?

One sweater for the next duno how many months of my life.

Rebond please!

In situations like this,

I feel like cam-whoring....

But 'paiseh' ...

Brother;s friends are here, everyone..

must look nice nice if wana cam-whore.

But so awkward......

Give me a break. I really need one.

red pumps

2006-10-11T18:51:00.000+08:00

Bought something today. The shoes I wanted so badly. Im like so damn happy. Some of them red pumps. It looks exactly like the picure above except that mine isnt high heels. But still real fly. Pointed tip and blood-red. Just the way I like it.

Exams are finally over. Is there like school tomorrow? No right? Thank god. Today was not really a good day to celebrate end of exams. I was initially gona spent my time at pasir ris park with a whole lot of friends. But then, went to this place to meet some people instead. Wasted my time there. I was so pissed I complained to sofi the whole trip back to white sands. Is like, I should have gone to pasirris park.

Then did nothing at White sands. Just chat with some friends we met there. Then me and alyssa went to tampines mall to do some window shopping. I found some nice but affordable shades. Wait till he give me the money to buy.

Then later later, met my granparents and mum at tampines mall. Then I wanted to buy shoes. So bought these realllllyy nice ones. (above)

Today I was like in abit of a bad mood. Dont know why.

I love my grandparents so much. They are so cute. =)

2006-10-10T18:00:00.000+08:00

Haze came back!!

YAY!!

The last important paper ended today.

Unimportant art exam- Tomorrow.

Seriously, I dont really care bout art.

I lost the paper and I dont care to find out what the ques are.

Wierd right.

Saturday-

Joey unexpectedly called me at 9.00.

Asked me to come down.

I was a little reluctant at first cause was like real tired.

But then I still went. =)

Then sat near the voiddeck. People playing with fire and all that.

Hanged out with guys and girls from other sec schools.

Sat down and chat while my friend cut her wrist.

Wierd huh?

Got alot of blood from her thumb.

Tsktsk...

Sunday-

So far one of the gooder days.

We went to the ARSENAL FOOTBALL CLUB.

Oopps. I left the caps on. Sorryy.=)

but im no big fan of arsenal.

Manchester united still makes my heart beat FAST.

I went to watch the formula 1. Shared some pussy foot drink. And ate a whole basket of hot potato wedges. The arsenal football club is so fly. Niceee! The screens are so huge.

But sadly, michael schumacher's engine blew. Somemore he was leading first place just 16 laps left to the finishing.

Wasted~

And Alonso won. Sad right. Badly wanted michael to won. Now for sure he cant win the title.....

Monday-

exam. and Battle.

Today-

Woke up late. Then my mum didnt want to send us.

Cause at that time got alot of traffic jam. So had to take the MRT.

Saw maisarah at the station!

I thought she would have already gone cause she go school bit early.

Today, my bag ran away.

I missed it during math exam.

AH, and today We bought flowers.=)

And donuts.

You know what?

Im hungry now.

Skipped lunch just now.

I feel like eating western.So much.

Today.....was math paper2.

afraid of flunking

2006-10-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

So many people are turning anorexic

Skinny is nice.

But too skinny just isnt erm..nice.

The haze is so hardcore I'll suffocate to deathe.

Its getting worse.

Die faster.

YAY!

I suddenly lost appetite these days.

Dont know why.

Just dont wana eat the usual amount

I've lost weight and fats!

Yay to loss!!!

tomorrow Im going church.

With nothing whatsoever in mind to wear.

Maybe i'll just go bare and let everyone see me, die.

Nope, guess not, not a free show okay.

Its kinda late right now,

My eyes are barely open,

It's gona be sunday in a few more minutes.

I learnt a new malay bad word today.

Hip hip hoorayy for cassandra.

YAY ME !

PS: More clothes needed in wardrobe.

PPS: Yuan yi owe me money.

Im bored,

2006-10-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

ohh this is nothing, I just like her hair. NICE RIGHT

Sad?
act cute act cute. AIYOO
Caught on pic!!Sofi kissing aishah's hair?
See no evil, hear no evil, say no evil
the one beside is her foot!
Such hardworking people right.
Cam-whoring time!!
Aishah,Pillow fight?

stufff.

2006-10-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating for so many days.

And also, many things has happened over these past few weeks.

Many many things.

Im failng failing failing.

Till I reach rock bottom

Afraid of dropping to normal stream? Hell yeah.

But the news say they are making everyone even- study the same stuff, same speed, together. Means no more normal stream.

I hope so.

I think I'll be one of the lowest in class.

I've lost faith in myself.

Today was my moms birthday. She was happy with the present i got her.

Was a nice family gathering..

Also children;s day and my cousin's first holy communion.

It sucks being just a little bit older.

But people think im 16 or 14 or something.

I look matured for my age? If so, then YAY!

I owe Afiqa the lake house cd. But the thing is that I have not watched it yet.

I just wana be free. No strings tied.

Sounds lame huh.

means, i can do whatever I wana do without worrying bout no shit.

I wont be updating pretty soon though,

i gotta study.

How can a hardworking person like me not study?

Come on man.

Im an angel =)

I've decdicated myself and vowed to do well nomatter what it takes.

I'll show everyone I can do it.

And stuff it at their faces.

The motherfuckers who dont think I can do it.

Non-believers. Im doing my best. I study shit everyday like hell okay?

I just hope

and pray,

to do well. especially in my chinese and matha nd science.

But Im really worried.

Oh no, havent done my homework.

Heck lah.

some 'advice' I read from a book. it helps.

Hate to be loved,

wana be alone,

dont wana be played out,

just the way I like it

I wana stay on top,

that's how I succeed.

Life's like a game of chess.

I play against myself,

I look at life from every position,

I play from everyside,

you gotta know what each man is thinking

right down to the littlest motherfucker on the board, just like the pawn

some palyers are quick to sacrifce or ignore the pawn.

but i gotta be smart,

Them pawns are my soldiers

If i surround myself with strong soldiers,

give them all the stake in the game,

then they keep the herd strong and tight.

That's when you attack.

shala

2006-09-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

I don't know why, but I kinda miss ncdcc.
I miss the torturous training.
But I don't miss the uniform.

I need training.
or I'll grow fat!
and overweight!
That would suck.
Maybe i do training on my own.
I do situps everyday! =)
it is definitely an improvement.
50 situps everynight bfore i go to bed.

So my tummy wont be huge.

And I'll have abs!
HEHEX
God, Im lame.
But,,also very serious.

Oh ya,
bcos of everything that's going on,
forgot to tell you guys that,,,,
i got my handphone back,
but its a little bit *siaosiao now,
its just because it misses me=)

Today had that supplementry.
had to sit bhind afiq.
which is very good cause he kept turning around to put potato chips on my table for me to eat cause I didnt bring food.
And then later i took cherie's potato chips.
=)

the alter shift class to 1/7. Sat at this person's place got tissue box hanging from the table in a cloth design.
Got magazine under the table.
Wanted to read but then have to do that math test.
I dont know how to do all.
i think i'll get zero altogether.
Scared exam come out this diff,
sure fail.

TSKTSK.
Im so dissapointed in myself.
But,,just now i study geog,,
so good right,
Can see my halo =)

Tmr got bible class.
I dont know what to wear!!!'
Yuan Yi owe me shades!!!
I want them like real bad.

me n lijuan wearing dresses from topshop to ms tan and mr teo's wedding.
=)
and i've decided what to wear on tuesday.
katherine, tues wana come my hse first?
I wana change.
I dont wana weaar school uni.
So awkward.

I want more clothes.
I sick n tired of the clothes in my wardrope.
I need to sms that mdm diana.
The stars stupud powerpoint cannot recieve.
Im worried that i get a failed mark in stars.
I cant fail any subjects,,,
well, cause,,,
Im...
SUPERWOMAN.

Nahs.

I dont want to be that.
I'd rather be a fairy princess.
Then fly away to my castle and get a fitness trainer.
So i wont get fat!
I developed a very habit!
I like to bite the tip of my fingers real hard.

bad bad habit.

i could live forever. But i decided not to.
I would rather create havoc in the after life. Thank you

2006-09-22T22:05:00.000+08:00

I don't know why but I feel like watching, 'A walk to remember' again.
It so nice.

The chorus of that song.
I love that movie song.

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll goDancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me?

I had to study like hell mad just now before I could use the comp.
Cant use it next week so treasure this time and tmr and tmr.

I've been so tired these days that I'm dreamy in class.
Science teacher and math teacher both after school wanted to see me to talk to me. Interesting conversation.
Its not really my fault that lesson is boring.
If its interesting, i wont be dreaming.

-Today my brother's birthday-
So,
Happy birthday you dumbass Brandon Maurice Loo Fei.
Then today get to eat pizza.
My favourite pepperoni and hawaiian.

Tmr got supplemetry so early in the morning.
I need sleep. its making my eyes have black circles.
Not nice!
I have plans, wana hear?
- Erhemm.
1. Buck up on my math. Understand the concept
2. Buck up on science, understand the whole thing
3. Buck up on geography, just get high high marks.
4. Pass my chinese, cant afford to fail.

And im doing my plan number 3 on Monday,
going to stay back to attend the geography lecture.
HAHA.
My brother just blowed his cake.

I hate my birthdays.
I always get scolded by my mum .
And a year ago, i cried.
Sad sad story.
Miserable.

Feel so empty right now.
Not hungry.
Just that empty feeling that runs through your body.
Oh..i really wana do well in the exams.
i keep thinking I'll fail.
It is so not building up my self-asteem.

Wait;
I have to say this,
ME AND ALYSSA ARE TWINS.
Really, we are.
I promised her I'll write this.
We look alike right right?
And im fasting also together with her,
But, i get to eat a biscuit or two when im hungry.
This can benefit me alot.
Cause now i can save money from my daily allowance to buy a the stripe bag and other stuff.

To aishah:
Please dont ever even think about harming yourself.
Cause if you do, i will scold you real bad.
like for real,
dont bleed yoursellf for *him
You're too good for him.

remeber that,
Shaojun, i'll take my revenge.
When you're not looking, i snatch your ruuber band and throw to that 2/2 guy or whatever class he is in.
Watch out.

2006-09-17T21:07:00.000+08:00

Im not cooking shepherd's pie,
its been changed to porridge
Porridge.
Yeah, nothing interesting bout that.

Measely little porridge,

She nags;
I pretend im listening,
Actually, i dont give a damn.
Its my life,
the way i build it, the way it's structured.,
I plan it all.
I know what im doing inside my useless brain.
Or so you said., yeah, its useless.

But;
If its so useless,
then how i think smart?
Then you mean that exams time i will fail issit?

Im not dumb.
Im just slow to react.
Cause, just like you said,
I heck care bout my surroundings,
but i care alot.
You see, the thing you dont seem to get,
is that im a very interllectual person.

=)

Went to the airport today.

To get my dad, he went to Shanghai.

Woke up early today to go church.

Didnt plan on going though.

Rummaged through my closet to find something to wear.

Oh my god, ahah.

kaixuan just told me that alot of people cooking porridge.

Then all taste the same how?

Sure get low marks.

DAMN. I have porridge cooking competitors.

That sucks.

I hope my porridge stands out from the rest.

HHAHA. Porridge competion.

God, im lame.

And so, I ,like, love the people who are just as lame as me.=)

I will do some butt-kicking.

boot kicking.

Oh, whatever.

Oh! Elimination. Yeah.

oh shit.

I forgot to wash my schoolshoes.

The old wearing out shoes.

my mum is so sweet right now.

She help me to sew back the buckle on my school skirt.

But also abit irritating.

I wana use the comp without interruption,

then she keep calling me to come out do this do that.

Can i like do it after im done?

Tuesday going chinese garden. its bcause duno what express chinese class pupils compulsory to go.

See, my brain works fine mom. Im in express. =)

From 5pm to 8.pm

Insane right.

That means i'll reach home at 9.00pm.

But i think i wont go home after school.

I'll go sleep at some place.

I've been lost in thought at times over this particular thing.

Its not a thing actually,

i mean as in not an item but like some stuff.

Situation where blabla..

bla.

Wierd huh.

Oh ya, sofi bananatoast, i'll share with you porridge

Not shepherd'd pie- but i know how to make. =)

2006-09-16T19:19:00.000+08:00

Shepherd's pie.
Yup. That's excactly what i'm gona cook up for home econs.
=)
Mashed potatos with like bits of tomato and meat, is that what's inside? Oh, im gona add alitte bit of macoron and cheese.
Then add a little something something to it so that when Ms yong eats it, she will get diarrhoea.
Just kidding. I wana get a good mark and i also wana eat it for recess, and share it with bananatoast sofi!
That is,,, if it turns out good. and not burnt. It will taste tasty. =))
my mum will teach me i guess cause her shepherd'spie is superr delicious.

Today;
Woke up at 7.00 to go for maths supplemetry at 8.00.
Got a scolding from my moms in the morning,. spoil my day.
Today when i studying then start scolding me again. Ahe what i cant remeber wahtever shit.
Our family aint got much love. Its all about disciplining yourself.
Oh ya, she scolded us about discipling ourselves. And then turned out to scold aobut my bad habits.
Screechy yee yaw yee yawthen voice loud loud.-her naggings sound like that.

------tHEN reach schoo, tiredd. everyone all so tired. During math test, i yawn like hell then after i finish then i like fall alseep, half awake half asleep actually.
Then Ms tan, was like , 'cassandra, wake up, check through your test paper.'

And then i check .

I dont have to study much anyway. My palm reading future stuff says that i'd marry at the age of 17 and by then, my succesful buisness will become even more succesful.
So, i got future. Can own a bungalow, got three sons. Having daughter must spend alot of money. She grow up wait everyday go out shopping, spend my hard earned money only. And oh yes, and i can get alot of nice shoes, designer bags, branded this that, all that top notch stuff,

And i'll donate some to charity. -i guess.
And i give to my parents. And i can travel alot. Go see paris, london all that famous tourists places. And then i go climb mount everest.
And go water-skiing. Skuba diving at tioman., surf boarding,
Go bali again, see volcano, climb the volcano.

Go australia visit my great grandmother. She is now 90 years old and still strong. =). She looks like my grandmother.

NAH. My great grandma looks my dearr grandma. My grandma is the one mixing the dough. Cooking skills, it runs in my family. =)

Just kidding.

Oh yes, she and my grandpa coming down to singapore soon. Man i miss them so. SO so much.

They so cute, how can i not miss them.

2006-09-10T20:02:00.000+08:00

Firstly, HAPPY 13TH BIRHTDAY LIJUAN!

I think I gotta get her a present when i've saved enough money. =)

Afiqa's b'day is on the 12th and my brother's on the 22nd. Saturday gotta go to pasir ris as some kind of church class outing. Part of me wants to go and the other part just wants to skip it.

Im skipping dinner today. Just not in the mood to eat. HAHA. This is so cute. can hear my sister fighting with my brother over a can of pepsi. Cause he drank too much. But we, like, drink 2 cans of pepsi everyday. And , coke is really bad cause it contains alot of sugar and pepsi is better. =) Cause it contains less sugar.

And i cant like use the phone any damn time i wana use it. its really getting on my nerves.

OH DAMN.....Sofi just reminded me there's a like home econs theory test tmr. I'll just flunk it. Home econs,,,i think its a waste of my time. But i think teacher already has a bad impression about me. Just got that feeling.

I know how to make chocolate chip cookies, muffins, shepards pie and stuff like that. But not thattt good. But cooking is sometimes fun. Right>?>??

I forgot. I cant believe i forgot. School is reopening tomorrow.

Dread~

2006-09-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

God, my body feels so warm but im so cold.

I feel like im soo sick, but im not.

Been feeling so damn tired these past few days,.

But I cant seem to fall asleep at night.'

Im having this really annoying sore throat,soo hoarse, it makes my throat feel like its buring or something,

I cant talk. Cause it hurts.

I also caught a flu and i cough real bad sometimes.....

AHH.

Just coughed.

Again....

Im so tired........

Oh shit, got bible class tmr, i skipped it last week.

But its so troublesome, so early in the morining, i dont think i can get up.

But i promised eliza and evan that i'll be there.

My arm hurts, that kind of numb pain feeling.

Oh, the phone's ringing.

But its not for me.

Oh god,My throat hurts

Just kill mmmeeeeeee,,,,,,,,

AND, did i mention shao jun and kat came to my house today?

We talked alot and that made my throat even worse.

Afew minutes kat called and i was coughing into the phone,

Did i mention that they are super cute,

Like, for real?

I owe shao jun $1.50.

But i dont even have 10 cents in my fucking wallet.

I dead broke.

Thank god i dont live by myself,

then whereelse will i get money from?

I think i'll die.

I bring you down with me, we could fly away,

just like we did last summer. =)

superman.

2006-09-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

n

Mr. twohill is out.
Its sad cause i kinda wanted jasmine out,
No idea why....
He should make a record deal and do albums.
He left an image there in SI though.

Well, im kinda down,
cause im in deep shit,
and i dont know what will happen,
I love this superman song man...
Even heroes have the right to bleed; to dream.

I even changed the lyrics to the cover page of this blog,

and the song,

Im that in love with this song,

You just feel so at peace with this song.

That kind of feeling....

I'd just dream of flying off with my superman....

Him wearing his funny red sheet,

Yeah right?

Ahh,,,yes

shala

2006-09-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

Miss them so much.

They are so crazy that i love them so much.

I really wana go out but then, my mum wont let me.

Yeah, and i shall do a little dance with them. =). HAHA.

Im so lame that i laugh at my own jokes sometimes.=(

Thats how bored i am.

Im planning on doing the math project on sat.

Wana go debs hse to play with her dog.

Dont be jealous okay 'zaza'. haha.'

And i can be away from home. =)

And i have to call my friend. Promised to call him. It concerns something important.

And i like to know about important things, it makes my life seem so undullish

I've got this friend who wants me to turn emo. He is willing to teach me everything about it.

But, should i turn emo? No idea. Its itching me. Emo me? But i know some people who do want to turn emo. But must ask him first.

AND,

Its always study study study at home.

Equations, its all crap.

I'd crack my head just trying to find the solution,

I wonder if i'd ever get the right answer,

i dont fucking understand this question,

wont you just help me?

I used to love geog,

but now i find it a bore,

its not the topic,

Oh no, its you. I'll get caught up in this sucky fantasy of mine,

where you actually got me interested,

you tend to scare me sometimes,

when you start to raise your voice.

im sorry i dont get you, well maybe you're mumbling your way through,

Dont get me intimidated, it wont do you good,

I daydream because i like it, its my problem if i wana listen.

The naggings got me screaming, in my mind i hope to ditch it,

that cranky voice i listen to everyday,

as if i'd love to waste my precious time, no thanks, i've got better things to do,

I'd get wasted and drunk one night, each night,

like a fairytale that ends,

i'd meet my prince, and he'll go 'bangbang,

he knocked me out dead, god, i love him,

I'll call him my lovely princey gun...

dont forget, i like crapping too.

It makes me feel 'alive'.

2006-09-06T19:33:00.000+08:00

Mum and Dad,
Do I make you proud?

Why do you guys sometimes seem so dissapointed in me?

I tried to make you proud of me,
everyday of my life,
I'm pretty sure i failed each day,
am i a failure in studies?
is that what you want me to be?
Smart and perfect?
Someone you can boast about to your friends maybe?
I tried my best,
you always compare me to my brother,
Yes, i know he's perfect, but can you just accept me for who i am,
You never know that sometimes i cry softly at night,
mum, you are not the only one that cries,
you cried to me once, you told me about how i am such a failure

Dad, you're never around,
you dont know me well,
im capable of doing other things, not just studies,
Im better than some other kids that hang around all day doing nothing,
You've taken away my freedom, my handphone,
And trust me to hang out with the correct people,
You want to meet them all, and judge them,
Its not fair....

I try to put on a happy face everyday sunday when im with you guys,

But maybe we're just too perfect of a family?

It abnormal, we need some sharp edges,

2006-09-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

Devastating news.

Commerating steve irwin's death, I'd just like to say that he was a good man.
He stands for animal rights and I highly respect him. Hell yeah, I watch his show on animal planet almost everday with my sister.
We pray that his family- Terri Irwin and their two children aged eight and three, that they will be alright.
And send our deepest sympathy to them.

-please observe one minute of silence-

For those who does not know about his passing and how he died,you can visit this website ,
http://comingsoon.net/news/tvnews.php?id=16327

In loving memory of a great man, animal lover, father and husband,

2006-09-04T17:39:00.000+08:00

It seems like it never happen,

the day we drove out to the beach,

as we sat on the soft golden sand.

you played the guitar

and sang the song we wrote,

We drove into the sunset,

and turned up the radio,

We'll sing love songs and make vows to keep,

I pictured that moment

repeated each vow in my heart like a broken record.

I hope you'll keep to it,

broken promises never did me good,

like a little sail boat sailing out to sea,

it gets smaller and smaller as the distance gets wider and wider,

I dont want to be that sailboat,

I wana be close to you forever,

2006-09-03T17:52:00.000+08:00

Sorry eliza.

I didnt go. I wanted to. I really did.

Missed bible class.

I overslept.

I love to sleep.

Sleeping just rocks my life. =)

The weather is so cold that i could just go into the room and lock the door.

Cuddle up in my blanket..

And turn up the radio like nobody's buisness.

Except that my brother is playing xbox and he would totally get mad and ask me to lower the volume.

I could use the headphones and turn the volume real loud?

Close enough. =)

Im going to take my confiscated handphone now.

I know where my mum hides it.

I take it out whenever she's gone.

Shh...

But now the battery is flat and i cant charge it.

I need a new pair of school shoes.

Mine is tearing.

Why is it that my shoes all wear down so fast.

Oh damn, my mom home.

No chance.

I miss my cell though....

yes ir.

2006-09-02T16:04:00.000+08:00

I feel so bored.
But also happy.
Cause today I went shopping.=)
Bought this sweater thingy shirt. Its nice. =)
And i dont know what to wear tomorrow for bible class.
So difficult to find something out of your closet.
Oh yes, i bought this reallyyy NICE babydoll dress at like $40 to $50.
It was worth it.
SO NICE. Bought it at topshop?
I cant remember.........................

But there are things i really want to get.
I mean like REALLY wana do and get
#1 Big shades.
#2 new contact lenses.
#3 rebond hair
#4 tapled jeans
#5 denim shorts
#6 those really nice long necklaces
#7 handbags. Like really nice ones.

#8 clothes from topshop

these are currently my urgents.
Im saving money. =)

iconn

2006-09-01T18:43:00.000+08:00

What am I doing on a nice school-free friday?
Well, nothing much.
Went out just now. For alittle while.
Now im bored at home.
Im cold, its about to rain.
Would you be so nice to go get me a nice blazier or sweater?
I dont think so.

Would you get me really nice and big shades to shield me from the blazing sun on a sunny day?
I really want one.

Oh, this is so random.
It because im bored.

Oh yes, i love icons. <33

They make me scream.

I got lots of them.

I put them up all the time.

yehaa

2006-08-31T21:51:00.000+08:00

Im feeling so emo and i dont know why.
Maybe its the weather ?
Is it possible?

I love cam-whoring with my class.<33
They are so LOUD and CUTE

Today went back to primary school.
I ran with Lyn from my hse to changkat.
It was like raining real heavily.
I got so freaking wet that my shirt got all tr______.
OOPS.
And like if you put a hand on my arm, your hand will get real wet.
And i was under the hand-dryer trying to dry my hair.=)

MUBARAK IS CUTER THAN EVER. the way he say my name is soo cute.
he will be like, 'hey cassandra' everytime. but he say so cute..CUTE-NESS
And he got pushed under the rain into the little flooded area.
And they attacked ridhwan.
I was like gona help him, but i changed my mind,
And he was like,' cassandra!!, help me!'

SO CUTE

then after, when to eastpoint.
I kena electricuted. But not that pain. Only the finger.
Bcos of lyn.....

2006-08-27T20:17:00.000+08:00

Oh damn...no time post. just display a little bit of pictures.

Cause no time.
Post another time.

2006-08-25T22:48:00.000+08:00

I LOVE PICTURES.

Today, bad things happened.
And kaixuan left his file.

Took lots of pictures but only displayed some.
Yup.

2006-08-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

Yeah. Im so full of shit.
Thats what my mother said to me.
She was like,' You know what? you're are so full of shit..'
I was like, 'uh huh..'

Today had the geog supplementary at 7.30 am.
So i left my geog homework under my table in school. Had to pass it up today.
So i set my alarm clock at 6.30. I wanted tor each school abit earlier so i could retrieve my homework and do the 5 pages bfore the teacher came.
So, everything was set. I slept peacefully......

LALALALA...my alarm clock rang. Just as planned. =)
But i soo dumb lah, i got up, walked to the table, off the stupid annoying alarm
then went back to bed to sleep. DUMB RIGHT?
Then at 7.00am exactly, my mum came into the room as was like, ' wake up. its 7.00 already and you're suppose to be in school by 7.30..'
Then i just say, 'okay..okay..'
Then went back to sleep. Then my mum was like, 'WAKE UP'
So i crawl out of bed...then took precisely 10mins to do everyday.
I ZOOMED through my moring daily routines. This is one of my fastest timing. =) iT was already 7.10...
Then, my bro was awake then he also have to go to school.
Then ask my mum to send him also casue he has a lazy ass.
So i had to wait for his lazy ass to get ready.
Then later my mum drive soo sloww....
Reached school, was so in a daze.
Deborah said that coudl see that i was still very sleepy.
She say my eyes bigger than usual. yeah,, cause i still not used to the light yet.
So it was like 'adapting'. =)
No time to do homework but took it from class.
Went to 2/something class. Did my hw when teacher going through and so,
i didnt have to copy chapters!

And afiqa and her cousin are UBBER CUTE!
Today had breakfast at mac with lijuan,katherine,cherie(horny babe), alyssa, merlissa(got her pregnant), sofi& aishah. LIjuan and me worry about cherie.
She has got to watch out.
Me and katherine were looking at the meanders found from the milo that she spilled onto the floor. So nice eh.
I scared merl will take my nice and expensive breakfast meal.So i try to avoid the food from touching her hands.
Then when finish, went back home......then got tuition.
Then........forgot.....then go church....ate at burger king in simei for dinner and i boguht the clip i wanted!
The end.

Im so full of shit=)

2006-08-18T20:29:00.000+08:00

Didnt blog for so many days..arrgg..
My mother didnt let me go on the computer.
So this is what happened....

Tuesday- CCA was cancelled. So, hanged out with merl,lijuan,cherie &sofi.
MUST stay away from cherie especially.
Haha, just kidding.
Cause she likes to pull girl's *stuff*.
So shaojun, merl &me has grouped up together to atack the others.
We'll watch eachother's backs. Cannot attack eachother.
Cute right.=)
LOVE THEM.
Then later we duno where to go.
So, we followed wherever our legs took us. Ended up at the provision shp.
Bought cup noodles then went over the the chair to sit bsdie the shp.
But so dirtyyyy. So we walked and walked everywhere carrying the cup noodles in our hand like siao.
Then FATE-as merlissa said, told us to go elvins hse but then FATE-as merl said again, changed and told us not to go. She is SUPER cute.
Then later duno where to go, so went to sit under a blk toe at our cup noodles then went to whitesands.
JUST to use the toilet. So later err after that, went to the top floor toilet,then headed back to school where we slacked all day.
Wednesday- went to shao jun's hse after school to take her geog text.
*there's ghosts there. shhh...
Then headed back to school for geog.
Went to white sands library with aishah, sofi &lijuan
aishah, sofi& me bought cookies and cream cappucino with the money kaixuan treat us with. =)
SOFI GOT DRUNK.
drunked.
cookies and cream cappucino *drunken* coffee

END
I got BMS. Just because i ate sweets in class. And was like in the clasrm with afew others while everyone was lining out outside going to scince lab. Ms NG give one. I popped the sweet into my mouth then ms ng came.
SHE WAS SUPPOSE TO BE AT THE LAB!
So, elvin,nizam &me got BMS cause teacher saw. got alot mroe ppl eat the sweet but then the sweet was like already in their mouth.
GOING WITH THEM AND LIJUAN FOR BMS

Today- elvin didnt come to school so me and lijuan went to visit him.
Then later rushed back to school for me to change into my full-uni.
Clifford was like smiling at me cause i nvr bring my ncdcc pe shirt , cap and stuff. Mean right?
Then later he used the newspaper to hit my head.....
Nadirah says im good at tying rope! its was like my first time and i got everyway way to tying the rope right. =) Then she kept thanking me for teaching her. So cute!
Had PT with NCC. So tiring man. The game was tiring i mean.
Had to run a relay in grps of four carrying the canteen bench around the whole school. Paired with two of my fellow NCDCC cadets and one NCC cadet.

Tmr got geog supplemtary. Left my homework under the table...

2006-08-13T20:21:00.000+08:00

You know sometimes when you're sad...
you see other people happy and you hate to see them happy.
You would wish the whole world was sad with you..

Yeah, I'll admit that sometimes when you guys ask me whether I'm sad. I'll lie and say no. Then I'll act all happy.
But the truth is, sometimes i am sad. And i dont know why. Im just lost in thought about some stuff. That's all. Like now, i feel so sad inside and i dont know why.

It's wierd how sometimes you can feel some emotion and dont know why.

Its natural yeah.
Today watched pirates of the carribean: dead mans chest. Very nice show.
But i bet you that they will have a pirates of the carribean episode 3.
Cause it was an abrupt ending and they have a new journey.
So the show is obviously not finish yet.
The next episode which is episode 3, i guess they will sail to the end of the world to rescue jack sparrow....

I wana be a pirate. =)

2006-08-12T21:32:00.000+08:00

Love them shades. Love my blogskin.
I love the shadess...
I want one. I saw this one but it was like $300.
So expensive.
I love my blogskin. Love it love it..
Oh yeah..i miss my handphone and tmr for bible class it is compulsory to bring a bible. But i cant find mine. I am dead again. Gota pay $10

I wana watch The Lake House. But got no money. Myabe i go watch with my sister. She also wana watch. And aishah too? Maybe. She also wana watch.

leta go

2006-08-09T19:21:00.000+08:00

I just realized something. Man, she's so fake. Bitch..

Called my mum just now and stuff. Yeah, my mum went off to bangkok yesterday to visit my grandad. She's coming back tomorrow i guess.

I wana go out with nizam and clare tomorrow. They asked me. We wana go out for some coffee. I really need some good coffee. My sister is out at the church barbecue.

Im having a blast here. Yeah. Spending my national day alone at home with my brother when im supposingly suppose to go out with some friends and stuff. And yeah, listening to sad songs and watching sad movies really makes me more reasonable and the fact that i am suppsoe to be watching the national day parade right now cause there are no other shows right now and isnt that everyone else is doing if they are stuck at home alone with their brother, possibly dying because of boredness. And the fact that some people are actually out there having a fun filled day doesnt help one bit. But thank god there are some people out there who is doing the same as me but maybe are in a worrse situation cause they are home alone or that they are stuck with their totally annoying but at the same time adorable little borthers or cute screamy sister makes me feel much better.

Well, in conclusion, im bored...

and i am writing a compo here./ Amd i havent finished any of my homework and i really really dont wana do it. And now my brother in the same room as me and he turned on the tv in this room and changed the channel to the national day live. So im hearing everything..

Well, i think i wana go to the living room to watch some other shows

My freaking coke from burger king taste so diluted with water as the ice has melted waiting for me to drink it and that im soo hungry and yet not in the mood to eat because its national day and im stuck at home.

I want a flaggy tatoo.....but hopefully i can go out tomorrow to replace today.

Ps. coffee really helps.

FIRE WORKS COUNTDOWN NOW.!!!] nice..awesome fireworks

AND HAPPY NATIONAL DAY YA'LL.

Love you guys and wish you all the best. Singapore is getting old...

hiyo.

2006-08-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

photo adapted from SOFI.

BYEBYE nathanael.
We will miss you alright. Even though we weren't so close to you.

The farewell party was all good.
Sofi brought her camera and started taking alot of pictures of our party.
Had a feast of coke and pizza. And sweets!!
Ms anne pay=)

DENMARK!!! He's going there...so far.
Today had to do the marching. I was so nervous. Everyone was nervous. Then nervous untill march so straight. Which is a good thing.=) Maam very proud of us. She said we improved alot.

ALOT. But the dancing kinda sucked for me. Not in the mood to dance because of they all..
But was smiling away.

But the wave part..everyone push push push untill nadira almost* fall on me.
Oh yes. Congrats to 1/7 on winning the futuristic costume design for sec 1. The costume i ubber cute. With a star and stars hanging from the shirt. And the sunglasses and jacket..
Oh yes, lijuan did a really good job too. =)
Fazly won the overall contest. With his future police uniform. Looked more like power rangers. ahha. On monday he kept looking with his shiny eyes like so innocent..feel so damn guilty...
After the parade and all. I changed to my pe shirt and skirt. Then stayed in school for the party.
Then later i wondered around with cherie and clarissa..kater we decided to go to the white sands library.
Where i bought my cookies and cream ice ice blended coffee. =) And then we sat and talk. Then clare tell us whats on her mind. The coffee was good by the way.

We stayed there untill 12.30.
Later i went back home in simei. Later joey and lyn called..say wana hang out. So they both came to my place. TALKED FOR A LONGG TIME. Then later played x-box, the 'burn out' racing game.

I kept winning lyn in the race. =) Later then we decided to go seven-eleven. So bought stuff. I saw kel come out of the mrt station.

Later accompanied Joey home to Simei green. Was right infront of maisarah's house.
Me and lyn wanted to call maisarah to come down to the street soccer court to play soccer.
But then instead went to joey's condo the below where the playground was.
And hanged out at the that pole. Literally. We actually hanged and my hair was like touching the ground.
I swear all my blood was rushing to our head. Then lyn fell off the pole thrice and hurt her thigh.
Then later walked back to my house to take lyn's bag. When wwalkig up the stairs, i somehow slipped and fell. Yeah. Right there on the stairs.
I ended up laughing in pain. And lyn was like, this was the first time she saw someone laughing when she fell on the stairs. She helped me up when i was one the floor laughing madly with my face buried in my hands.
I couldnt stand up as i hurt my left arm.
There were two long and painful scratches on my arm which bled for awhile. Scratched my arm on the edge of the stairs....

but when got home, she left and i finally got to take a shower..

But we coudlnt play soccer. Because there wasnt time and i didnt have a soccer ball at home.

My handphone kena confiscated agian. Just bcause the bill too high. Confiscated for 3 month! So long..cant sms friends and all..i miss my phone.

2006-08-06T16:35:00.000+08:00

This song nice?
Wanted to put the lyrics up but changed my mind.
Tomorrows the wet weather rehearsal.\
Time to dance and stuff.
I had the wierdest dream last night...
I saw myself smoking...
Wierd huh.

I think i can go out on wednesday. hopefully.
my sister is going for this church organized barbacue thingy.

I dont wish to stay at home with my brother.
alone with him.
He'll be liking hooked up on the x-box and internet.
And waht do you expect me to do? Watch tv,sleep and eat all day?
Yeah..i can do that provided that there are nice shows and nice food and that im in the mood to sleep.

OR..

I could chill with my primary school friends.
Been itching to meet them after i had to turn down a nice gathering with Lyn cause i had my cca on that day.
But i am definitely going back on teachers day. that is, if the freaking discusting principal of changkat sec.that ms wee let us in. I miss our old principal Ms foo...i was like so close to her man...

2006-08-05T19:37:00.000+08:00

You know what?
I really feel like having a SECRET blog.
Like where i could rant out everything. And actually name names.
And tell all my secrets.

I wana watch THE lake house, seems like an awesome show. Today borrowed a book. Got alot of bitching in it. And love the language they use. Great book. Im gona read it over the hols. Cause well, im pretty much 'grounded'. While my parents are away, i cant go out.
Wait, let me rephrase that. NOONE can go out. But if we do like wana watch a movie, we gota go as one whole. That is my bro, sis and myself have to stick around eachother. my brother will keep a close watch on us. Cause he Mr. perfect. HATE him.

But my parents are going overseas. Let me have some fun time. My sis and me are so upset.
Tomorrow gota go bible class and church. Im so dead cause i cant find the bible and have to pay $10 if i dont bring it for bible class.

Monday have some bad weather rehearsal for the parade. But good thing is, dont have to wear our uniform..tuesday is the BIG day. Finally..wont have to stand still anymore.

cause i hate it. like fuck it, sometimes i totally regret....but again. sometimes i dont. there are days,,,

I really wana write something here but it is totally confidentally to me..

Sorry to him...but you know you know i jUSt dont want. ...

Well,,you all have been asking me why i dont wana stead, why im single,
my answer .. Told some of ya'll the reason why. And got loads of things that happened this week which i cant say or dont want to say..

And then I told someone who told someone and then told someone...and it spread till everyone knows bout it.
Damn you.

2006-08-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

Nizam..cheer up man..hate to see my dear brother so sad.
I hope that you will try to think less of this. Yeah. Promised to call you later.
Later. Very soon okay?
Sorry that she lied or whatever. Spoke to her today. Found out the truth.
The GOOD truth. But i think she should tell you herself rather than me.
But just cheer up will you? Talked to you bout her just now. You seemed damn sad. Made me feel sad too.

AND NIZAM. Yup. He arh..during NCDCC fainted. GOT BLOOD!!! aiyo. But he is alright. Got stitches.

Do I look sad? Then why is that that almost everyday, someone would ask me why im sad.
Im not sad....im HAPPY.

Found a kinda nice skin. Will put it up. =) MY PARENTS ARE GOING OVERSEAS FOR TWO DAYS.

My granddad who migrated to bangkok last year. He kena got heartattack. VERY SERIOUS, so.. my parents wil go to abngkok and living me and my sibligns alone at home. oh well..

we are gona SLEEP LATE, WATCH TV ALL DAY and stuff.

you know..STUFF.

PARADES ARE LOVELY BUT TIRING

2006-07-30T21:29:00.000+08:00

Oh, damn...I am starting to hate this new skin. It is so not what i would choose.
I will change it next week cause now no time.

HATE THIS SKIN.

So much.
Oh ya. The 'copycat' situation. How come untill so serious like that...

But we promise never to do it again. Im hoping to go back to changkat.
Missed it so much. But always not free.
Today went for bible class. Instead of doing bible study, they made us sing songs.
They even invited some teens to play the guitars.
Was not all that bad. But we werent in the mood to sing. So early in the morning..
all we do is yawn and yawn and yawn..
But in the end we sang abit. For the sake of the cathocists. They like so happy.

Going back to school tomorrow. Can't believe it but kinda dreading it.
Because gona face some encounters..i guess..
-secret-
Class is getting more and more boring as each day goes by.
Wonder when ms anne would ever change our sitting places.
I am daydreaming like crazy. PLUS drawing stuff.

Tomorrow got home econs. Time to face the almighty tweetybird.
She *tweet*tweet like there's no tomorrow.
But she;s so round and cute. Like a bird.
With all that heavy makeup that resembles a tweetybird.

Oh, sofi just reeminded me that gotta bring cooked rice to school tomorrow for hme econs.
But wont it like spoil the rice by the time hme econs start. I mean, the rice would be hard.
Birds like nuts and nuts are hard. I think..

OH YES.
VISIT OUR CLASS BLOG.
GOT VERY IMPROTANT ANNOUNCEMENTS. Regarding alot of important stuff.

Wensen is irritating me now. His damn questions.
But whatever...i dont care.
I can choose whether or not to answer them.
Today i saw sharon!!!
she is so nice.

SO NICE.

Arrgg..dont know what to write. That explains why I have been writing nonsence.

I wana use my ahndphone but i cant.
Cause im scared ///

I bet you that it will get confiscated again.
Im having problems with controlling the amount of calls, sms i use.

And yes,
I may be dumb but Im wicked cool. =)

2006-07-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

I have got bad news. It ain't good at all...
My computer kena lag or something then had to reformat the comp.
Then EVERYTHING is gone..my songs, pictures...everything..

Im recovering.
Feeling happier now. But sometimes still sad.
Been daydreaming even more.
I think gotta change blogskin. Cause the entries are too tiny.

My leg was aching just now. Had to rehearse the for the national day.
YAWN*
Damn tired. Tomorrow got to wake up early for tuition.

Oh yes, I got a future for geography.
Got second in class. =)
Just a little tiny half mark lower then the first.

I know! I could be a ..err..whats that called?
Alyssa told me then if i forgot.
Someone that works geography.
Good job.

And i studied for the geog test.
I didnt score it by luck yeah?

I so 'guai' mah.
Study so hard.
See lah..i cant be the NDP model..
which is good or bad?
But it is mostly good.
I got voted to be the model then have to do marching on that day also.
And i cant do two things at once. Or I will be a busy woman.

So i forfeit my title. =)
So im not so busy.
Im relaxed.

Some people are so nice.
Wait with me.
thank ya.

2006-07-23T00:26:00.000+08:00

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